it might just all be a facade

Monday, February 25, 2008;

♥ 2/25/2008 05:55:00 AM

We all need a best friend, to understand
A best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you>>

I feel the need &urge to let my inner feelings be heard. Not all, but at least those words which i need my friends to know, so they will understand.

To my drifted apart friends (taszemian, valeriachua, yipyunxing, jacquelinelee, nirmalayga, joaquinalin, carissahong, yuye, joshuakong, edmundchoo, aaronteo)

; I don't know if it's just me, or it's just the truth, but things between us aren't the same anymore.
We no longer msg each other like we used to, we no longer flood each other with mails, we no longer hang out like we used to, &we no longer act like we used to.
In fact, sometimes, we're no more than just 'hi-bye' friends.
Isn't it saddening? To see the friendship accumulated fade into dust? To see that friends, whom i hold so ~~darn~~ close to my heart, friendship which i built my love &trust on, just crumbles to the ground.
As upset as i am, as disappointed as i am. I'm still too stubborn to admit &show the fact that i hate it when friendship fades with time.
Y'know, i may act as if i don't need your friendship anymore. No, it isn't pride, nor is it ego. It's more of the fact that i feel 'I'm no longer needed in your life'. &cos of that, distance btw us just gets further &further.
I'm afraid to take the first move, cos i fear rejection. I fear you telling me straight in the face that i'm no longer needed. I fear of myself being an irritant, yet i know nothing bout it.
But hey, although things btw us changed with time, although we might no longer be what we used to do, although some things just change &we cant find them back. I need you to know that, i've been always here, &i'll always be.

Yours truly,
Wenfang.

There're still millions &zillions of things left unsaid. But sometimes, words do come a little tough. &all the pharses doesnt seem appropriate. :\

For the past few months, i've been wondering 'why is everyone changing?'
&it struck me recently that, maybe the problem doesn't lie with 'everyone changing'. Maybe it lies with the fact 'why am i still staying?'

So much with the sad post above. Just a happier note to end this post off: I had fun with the girls at my hse today. Laughter shared, joy shared, &food shared.
Loads of love! ♥

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&maybe things will be fine after awhile.